I'm mostly vicarious

I enjoy experiencing many things through others - that is, I enjoy living life vicariously. (Not everything, of course. Just a lot of things compared to other people.) I don't feel happy doing things myself - instead I get more enjoyment out of seeing other people do things.

Most of the games I own I have not played fully, simply because it is more enjoyable to watch Let's Plays instead. (Plus you can watch LPs at 2x speed.) I generally buy games when I want to reward the developers for their hard work, not when I actually want to play the game myself.

Life is too short and there are too many things to do. I find it easier to watch what other people do and skip the boring parts. I generally watch YouTube videos at 2x speed, and I'm usually doing something else at the same time (writing code, writing blog posts, recording for my channel, reading other people's code, reading other people's blog posts, etc). For a long time I had AdBlock enabled on YouTube to save time, but I decided that I want to support the people I watch more than I want to save time, so I disabled it. (Fun fact: until the fixed it, you could watch a YouTube video at 2x speed and the mid-roll and post-roll ads would also play at 2x speed - then if you navigated to another video it also plays at 2x speed meaning the pre-roll ad plays at 2x speed as well. (But then in the middle of my Watch Later playlist it got fixed right before my eyes.))

To those of you who are not vicarious and who actually do things and make videos of yourself doing said things: thank you for your good showmanship, I appreciate it. It's the people like you that will move society forward. I'll just quietly follow along, contributing to society whenever I have sudden strokes of passion. (90% of all my hobbyist code has been the result of sudden passion or inspiration.)

Sure, I'm a coward, but that's exactly what ninjas are not, and I'm totally not a ninja.